Alienated

Being lifted from almost two days of truly dreadful moments and awkward silence (well, just for me i suppose), I've managed to breathe again normally. Never in my life that I could be so talkative and flawlessly entertaining when there are lots of people around - this one counts when I am caught in the middle of those people who I am not used to be with. In one way or another, I really get tongue-tied. It gets me a little bit too long to ease myself at certain people. That's why I chose to deviate myself from them within those two days that they were around while enjoying themselves of the full time vacation they could spend in our house.

For those torturing moments, I just stayed in my room for almost every time. And during those times that I decided to get out of my room, I just listen to their petty talks. Of course, no interruption from me. I just drew insignificant faces just when the situation calls for it. Guess, I would not be used into exposing myself into people, not too soon. (sighs)

Ignatians had their "reunion". (I guess, it is not appropriate to be called that way, I was not around anyway.tsk) I was not able to come because as I have mentioned above, we had visitors. I missed the fun which I tried to get out of my mind the whole time I was locking myself into my room while pretending that I was studying, that was all a ruse!

Enough of the babbling and the nagging and the ranting. At least, I have achieved to get a good rest somehow. Thanks, anyhow. I was alienated enough for the past few days but I am used to it at some point, really. Looking for more. Now, enough of the most mundane and typical things.(smiles)

I had a jump start today. I woke up just enough for me to catch up with our breakfast. Before I had reached the end of my luscious breakfast, my father reminded me that they would be away for about an hour or so. That would mean being alone with my granny in our house. Well, she's not really my granny but she's close to being one. She's staying with us until Wednesday if I remember it right. She is a silent type of person, and will mostly looks at you when you are talking to her. She seldom speaks a word which is alright for me because if she would be talking a lot, I really do not know how I could compromise. I prefer silence than a lot of chattering at times. (Ahm, it depends on people at least.) So, we had lunch together and I felt some sort of fulfillment within me. The thought of giving her food and taking over the things the she needed gave me a sense of responsibility for that short time. And what's surprising, we talked while we were eating our lunch. So, so nice for me.(smiles)

Ciao.